Sigh... Hey everybody, lately I can't really shake the feeling of everything that everything that's been going on with me has been my fault. Like I don't know. I hate the fact that the people around me seem to be be suffering. Whether or not it has something to do with me it still affects me. I know, everyone tells me I can't save the world. Doesn't stop me from trying. I don't know, I need some sort of stability. Like I don't want my friends to hurt... I don't have a lot. I really, I just don't. And I want to go hard for them and it seems that I'm incapable of doing the littlest of tasks. Going to see them should be easy. That should be within my power, and it's just, it's not. And the money I save to get a car just seems to keep escaping me. And I feel terrible. I wish I could be there for some people in a bigger way and car doesn't seem to be in my cards yet. Sigh... i need to get there. I need to be more capable. I need to be able to be there. That's where I need to get. I will get there. I can. Just everyone wait. I can do it. Wait. I will make it so I can be there just give me time. No one will hold me back anymore. I will be there.

(Because sometimes the get away ride needs a get away ride )